Welcome a Fresh New Series: TUNMI’s Thoughts
TUNMI’S THOUGHTS
Donald called it religious. He asked if serving God meant that I shouldn’t be influential or rich. I don’t have an answer to that question. Once I cared about how the world saw me. The way I walked, dressed, laughed, ate, responded, talked and conducted myself mattered, but not anymore. Now, all that I choose to matter to me is Christ and His kingdom. I consider everything else vanity; but am I wrong to do so? Alternatively, is there a common ground? Is it possible that I can be looked up to and respected for all these other things and also for the Christ in me? I wonder.Also, I think of Pastors Paul and Chloe, and wonder if Donald and I would have a ministry like theirs. I would rather stay in the church and not branch off to any other ministry. However, Donald talks of having his own ministry outside of the church and being famous. Who’s right…who’s wrong? I think I’m happy here, but Donald feels the same way when he thinks of his ambitions (sigh). Am I wrong to want this for him? I strongly believe that there is only one church and I am part of it. I would that he would be a part too; together with all my friends, but…I don’t know.
Some years ago, I served in Pastor Paul’s ministry where the church was treated as an organization. Everything we did was for ‘the brand of the church’. Now however, I’m with those who treat the church as an organism to be cherished. I am finally free from the rules and ceaseless regulations, and feel at home where I am. However, I question myself against the satisfaction of my spirit, and my question is… should I go back to doing things for the sake of my reputation? Should the way the world views me channel me to pursue certain goals? Do I necessarily, by being influential and reputable, have to leave my footprints on the sands of time?Left to me, I’ll rather be simple. Whether I have much money or little wouldn’t matter. Whether the world recognizes me or not, wouldn’t matter. I’ll count all things loss, everything will mean nothing. Wars will happen around and I won’t be shifted. Strong winds will blow, and toss me around, but I wouldn’t care. Left to me, my eyes and heart will be set as a flint on the Lord that I might gain Him. Left to me, the world and all that matters to them would mean nothing. All that would be everything is Christ.Am I wrong or correct? I don’t know.
